A Change From Within

Once so happy to see a new face

Now terrified of what you might say

Once filled with an overwhelming joy to see you

Now filled with absolute dullness

I once wasn’t afraid to express myself

Now I’m afraid to tell

I could never find the tears to express myself

Now I fight to keep them from rolling down my cheeks

I always put on a brave face for another

Now I’m afraid of unveiling myself

I don’t know who I am anymore

Trapped between who I was and who I’m turning out to be

Insecurity surrounds me at every turn

Something in is dying

I just don’t know what it is yet

Lord, help me for I feel far

This struggle within me I can no longer harness

I’m losing control, I cannot contain;

The person I’m becoming

Teach me and guide me Lord

To be the person You want me to be.

-Hally-